as I am writing my book, I am going back in time and bringing back memories to share... here is one about my journey with snakes..
I walked out the door to go play outside. As soon as I closed the door behind me, I had the feeling someone is watching me. All I could think of was – RUN! I was running as fast as I could, to get to the barn where my grandma was… Just before I opened the barn door to go in, I dared to look back in direction, where I felt someone was watching me. Awwwwwwww – I screamed inside as loud and quite at the same time, as I could. It was her again – the black snake, black cobra, this t. She, felt like female energy, had been showing up almost every time I walked outside and sometimes even dared to come inside. I was petrified, it was freaky wired and I wanted this to stop. I hoped that she wouldn’t have noticed me looking and seeing her, but too late… I heard her “hassss” and like in a flash – she was over from across the street standing right in front of me… She didn’t try to hurt me or do anything bad, it almost felt like she wanted to communicate, but I sure was too scared to even allow the thought of making friends with her to come to my mind. Besides, what could snake possibly have to say to me and what could we possibly have in common?
The best I could think of doing, before my “lovely” cobra friend could say or do anything else - I screamed… and this time for real!
“Regina, Regina, are you all right?” that was my mom’s voice. Still not knowing what exactly happened, as I seemed to be somewhere else, not outside anymore, I slowly opened my eyes. My mom had turned the light on and I found myself lying down in a bed all sweating. It was the middle of night and my screaming had woken up everyone in the house. I continuously kept having dreams with snakes. Mostly snakes that appeared were cobras, once in a while some other were present. The snake I was talking earlier about was a special one as I kept seeing and feeling her presence strongly, when she was there, but she didn’t always show up. I remember myself being surrounded by snakes as if I was a snake queen and it was terrifying for me. Endless nights waking up from fear of the experience –that was the way it continued till my adult years.
Also on the physical level – I would always see snakes wherever I go. Where as others wouldn’t even notice them.
As I started to embrace my spirituality and healing power, snakes started to appear more than before again. Now I had a different experience – there would still be my “favorite”: cobras, but now they would swallow me, which to me seemed to be even more terrifying. Instead of seeing black majestic cobras, I would see golden cobra with a crown on her head. I have to say – golden cobra was the snake that I felt like I didn’t need to be afraid of which made me feel a little bit more at peace, when seeing snakes.
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I was listening to Atlantis meditation CD (by Diana Cooper) for the very first time. The guided meditation was guiding in Atlantis, to the most significant time and situation in Atlantis. I was taken by the experience. My black cobra, the same that was “haunting” me since childhood, was my best friend in Atlantis. I could feel the same energy as in my dreams and my feelings were confirmed as I was shown the same image of the snake across the road at the beginning of the paragraph.
When we got to the most significant moment in Atlantis at that time, I was shown the time when Atlantis fell apart and humans started to kill animals rather than staying friends. Being afraid that I would kill her, since people started to kill animals, she spit her poison on me and killed me. All I remember from that was – shock, physical pain and relief. Then all went dark and it took me a while to get out of the meditation space. Like in a fast forward movie, I had different memories about and with snakes represent themselves one after another. It was about a year later when I was visiting my friend and I was going to stay over night at her house. As we were talking about this and that, word-by-word it turned out that her daughter has a corn snake as a pet. My immediate first reaction was “old way” reaction as I found out about the snake, but surprisingly enough, I was able to get over it pretty quick. As my friend’s daughter cam downstairs holding her snake, I felt like my heart is pounding 10 times faster and I wasn’t sure if I wanted to see the snake closer that 5 feet distance from me, however I felt safe to let go of my “old way” of fearing snakes. Within few minutes I had snake in my hands and I was not only happy, but over happy as I realized that my snake phobia is gone forever.I have never had the “old way” reaction to snakes ever since and I feel like I wouldn’t mind to have one as a pet one day. I have also had many cobra visits ever since and they have all been extremely healing, have even had snakes put some symbols in my hands, guiding me in doing energy work.
Happy week to you all!
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